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Like Murphy says, "a posteriori" prediction is an exact science. Having seen all the events that followed up my decisions, one can easily understand how obvious they were and how wrong I was. This was simply not the case 5 minutes before when all you see is people eager to for a change for the better. Or so you think.
Like so many other times during my leading experience, I simply failed by giving people too much credit and assuming they had human principles and that we were all looking at the same horizon where the guild would be, where it certainly belonged and deserved to be. This is an experience I'll carry over to everything else I put effort in for the rest of my life.
I sincerely hope that nobody will ever feel the way I do, having something you made so many sacrifices for and invested so much money and time into during over seven years only to see it fade away in a second just because someone you trusted had other plans.. even though he was given all the freedom of speech and power to work with in order to get his ideas across, and support from everyone who wanted to make things better and get them done.
Ultimately I realize that the deep failure of the guild mentality came down to the simple fact that it wasn't a guild anymore. It's simply impossible to work with people when they're so objective centered that they stop realizing this is a game and what we had was a very good atmosphere in the guild, as you know, and everything else is just a product of effort and dedication to a common goal.
I'm not sad about the lack of progress we had, on the contrary. Taking into account that we lost our best geared tank, 3 of our top dpsers and one of the best healers that has ever passed through this guild, I'm extremely happy that we at least managed to keep the same progress and minimize the damage. Unfortunately most people didn't even realize that getting 8 trials in a raid instead of 8 cores would make things harder than usual, having so many people learning the fights and our specific way to deal with them as a guild. They simply expected everything to be better without adding anything extra themselves. Amauri's post is the caricature of all the core member's feelings. Not only are those thoughts horribly inflated (hell, the day Amauri boosted my raids, I'd disband the guild myself), they were also so common that we reached the point of having 25 people in the raid thinking "why am I boosting these retards ffs!?" every time someone made a mistake. At that stage there is nothing anyone can do but refresh the ranks, which wasn't even an option given the very timely lack of recruitment. These thoughts generally came from people who had VERY little to do with the actual progress we had done so far bar their contribution as players obviously, and it's a shame that everyone else gave more importance to them than to the people who knew better.
I'd like to thank everyone that was part of this guild throughout it's long existence, and with whom I shared so much, and offer the most sincere apologies to everyone that lasted for all these years and faced all kinds of storms that resulted from bold, risky and sometimes even drastic decisions, when the future was foggy at best. I am truly devastated by all the recent events and having it happen on my watch is something I'll never forgive myself for.
Regarding the future, I'll spare everyone from having to rise the guild back from the ashes once more. Nobody deserves this kind of punishment for sticking to something they believe in, myself included. If for no other reason, I don't have the availability to rebuild the guild back from scratch for the third time and I'll spare everyone that doesn't know what that involves from finding it out and be scarred for life, and also the ones who do know to have to go over all the process one more time when nothing was done to deserve it.
You're all free to search for a stable guild which can offer what you were searching for when you joined Safari and I hope you all find it as quickly as possible. I wish you all the best of luck with all your personal pursuits in and out of the game, and even when that fails, have fun doing it.
Yours till the last day, Febris / Gweyr.
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